today is gone
Friday, December 29, 2006I've been too busy to notice 2006 is coming to an end soon. Nothing much has been going on except the occasional studio photoshoots and dvd watching at home. It has been the same weekly heartbreaks when Aisyah goes back to Pasir Ris. And everything will go back to normal on weekdays...it seems. That emptiness is still there. I felt envy whenever I see mums fetching their kids after work or kanda's nephew waving us goodbye with his parents to go back home. lucky them.
On the spiritual part of me, I don't think I tried enough to improve myself. As a normal human being, I kept blaming God for all the crap I've been getting. I forget that by understanding our sixth pillar of Iman...even its bad is a blessing. I should be more patient. I really need to attend a class or something to boost the spiritual self in me. And to procrastinate no more. The last time I ever attended a religious forum/class was before I moved here and that was like a couple of years back. Jannah is not cheap and it doesn’t come easy either.
Of course, 2006 has been a blast. As cliche as it sounds, I couldn't have been happier to be with my family. My own family. The kanda and Aisyah. Alhamdulillah.
Wishing you all Salaam Eidul'Adha.